Well there isn't much to write about today. It has been a pretty boring week or so. I have been laying low and enjoying time with my little family, something that had been pushed to the back burner recently. I really don't know exactly how it happened, all I know is that I was in a pretty bad funk that I just couldn't seem to shake. When I took a step back and really looked at things I realized exactly why I was so moody and just plain GRUMPY!!!! It all started when we kinda decided that maybe Adam would take a job in another town, and we would only see him on the weekends. MAN I did not realize how much just the thought of this would affect me!! Instead of talking about all my fears about the whole thing I just shut down.. Its way easier for me to pull away from Adam than admit that I'm a big baby and don't know how I will make it through the long days and nights alone( well not really alone but without him) so I consumed myself with other things that were distracting to say the least!!! But distracting in what turns out was a bad way for me. Lesson learned!! Never distract yourself with someone else's problems, because at the end of the day you still have to deal with what it is you are distracting yourself from!!!!

Now its looking more and more like Adam isn't going to leave!!! Which may not be the best for us financially but we always manage to figure it out...somehow. He really hates his current job and I hate that he is so unhappy so I will support whatever decision he makes. I am however so THANKFUL that he loves me and the boys so much that he doesn't want to leave us, and he cares that we are all so happy here besides the job thing. We live about 2 streets away from my wonderful sister and her family and really the thought of not living by them alone is enough to make me want to cry. We have become so close I really don't know what I would do without her. And then there are all the wonderful people we have met here, and the great schools and I could go on and on and on.....If we have to move again I will be crushed but I guess I will survive:) So whoever reads this please pray for Adam to find a job close to home, so we can stay here!!! And if not that I will make it through 3 long months of him being gone all week and yet another move far away from my wonderful family who I cant imagine being separated from again:(